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I WAS AFRAiD :(

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i was afraid when the time comes that your gonna leave me . i was afraid if someone will got you attention . i was afraid if some bitches is flirting with you . i was afraid if someone is tempting you in any commitments. i was afraid because you will always be too far from me . i was afraid because your gonna busy and have no time for me . i was afraid if i saw you with someone else . i was afraid because i can`t make sure if your not making any bullshits things behind my back . i was afraid if your love for me will fade away . i was afraid if you fall in love with someone . i was afraid for everything that might had happened . I`m trusting you because your giving me reasons to trust you .ILOVEYOU because ILOVEYOU .I don`t know what to do if i lost someone like you :’(

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All my life I had been looking for something, and everywhere I turned someone tried to tell me what it was. I accepted their answers too, though they were often in contradiction and even self-contradictory. I was naïve. I was looking for myself and asking everyone except myself questions which I, and only I, could answer. It took me a long time and much painful boomeranging of my expectations to achieve a realization everyone else appears to have been born with: that I am nobody but myself.